Life Sometimes Sucks

Life Sometimes Sucks.


Seriously, we live in a world where nothing is suppose to come easy and if it does then its not actually meant for you.

 Dear Life,

Why do you give us a big cupcake and then it ends up being plastic? I don't want anything fake, I want the real deal. I don't want to take a bite out of that cupcake and end up having to go see my dentist because I chipped a tooth. Its Fake, Expensive and Painful.

In life getting to know someone is kind of like that, when you first go out on a date you don't actually act like the 'real' you, after all the real you is single so that means that something Must be wrong. So you get dressed up.

Men, you shave and dress smartly actually making the effort to look presentable.

Ladies, you spray on your most expensive perfume, put on that little extra make up and wear those extra high heels that extenuates you curves and make your legs look so damn sexy.

So things go well and three months down the line you get comfortable and you realise that the eye candy you first met ends up being a plastic cupcake and you realise that it was an expensive plastic cupcake and because it was fake, the pain of saying goodbye to the thought of what you were going to get and hello to the reality. Tracksuit pants and no make up.

And the process continues.

Until you settle for just.... alright. After all ladies, what more are we going to expect then a male sat in front of the TV screen?

We can not expect a fictional character to come to life and make your wildest dreams come true. That just wouldn't be Realistic.

And - if your not realistic then you either A) get that rare 'perfect' person or B) end up with 27 cats.

So which one are you? Realistic, Lucky Or Alone?


Dear Lessons,


I don't want to be alone, or just.... Ok. I want to be drop dead - head over heels - wrists over head in love. I know what your going to say Lessons "When are you going to learn that Life isn't a book?" - I know, I know life isn't a book - but I also don't want it to be a tragic movie.

Writing the pages of life is hard and I'm just taking it one word at a time. However the one word that I will never settle with is 'OK'.


So, Dear Life and lessons.

I will keep on searching for the one that makes my hart skip a beat  and my brain to make un realistic decisions. If not, at least ill have my cats to keep me company. And don't worry, this time I wont leap ill just take it one step at a time.

Signing off,

        21 and Unsettled.

21 and Clueless

 

 

22 March 2015

 Mostly Cloudy 

Dear Life and Lessons


              Every one keeps asking me, "Do you feel older?" - my reply - "I don't know, do you?" after all, you are a second older then you were a second ago. My birthday was just 3 days ago, how am I suppose to know if I feel older from one year to the next? I cant remember. What makes me feel older are Life lessons. Learning something knew that changes my perspective in life.

My downfall? Not learning from those lessons and sucking myself back into those Cr**y situations. And the worst thing about it all is that - I know - I know that I'm sucking myself back in, I know that its bad for me because my gut is screaming out in disgust.

Why? Why do I  do that to myself? I know its making me un happy, I know its not what I want for myself, I know that if I step into this situation that its going to bite me in the ass one way or another and still I do it. I do it and I know its bad for me and I don't know why.

I judge people commenting how stupid they are when in reality in no better. Maybe not stupid in there way but definitely in my own ditsy way.


So, dear life and lessons. When will I ever learn?

Yours Truly,

21 and Clueless.