21 and Clueless

 

 

22 March 2015

 Mostly Cloudy 

Dear Life and Lessons


              Every one keeps asking me, "Do you feel older?" - my reply - "I don't know, do you?" after all, you are a second older then you were a second ago. My birthday was just 3 days ago, how am I suppose to know if I feel older from one year to the next? I cant remember. What makes me feel older are Life lessons. Learning something knew that changes my perspective in life.

My downfall? Not learning from those lessons and sucking myself back into those Cr**y situations. And the worst thing about it all is that - I know - I know that I'm sucking myself back in, I know that its bad for me because my gut is screaming out in disgust.

Why? Why do I  do that to myself? I know its making me un happy, I know its not what I want for myself, I know that if I step into this situation that its going to bite me in the ass one way or another and still I do it. I do it and I know its bad for me and I don't know why.

I judge people commenting how stupid they are when in reality in no better. Maybe not stupid in there way but definitely in my own ditsy way.


So, dear life and lessons. When will I ever learn?

Yours Truly,

21 and Clueless.